Ouch

Once bitten…

Fear is an excellent tool for survival. It gets us out of danger and makes us think before actions in order to protect the body. Spirit is beyond the body and has no need for fear. 

Our egos love fear because it guarantees jog security.

We have a choice however and don’t have to live at the whim of our worries and fears. Spirit wants you to live with joy and peace! 

This may sound good in principle , but I am not sure if I stay in joy and peace all the time. Yesterday one of our big dogs bit the littlest one. “Winnie” was bleeding and crying and an emergency vet visit was required. The whole scene was dramatic with blood, crying and hysteria. Ridge loves this little dog and seeing her in pain sent him over the edge. (The vet bill sent me over the edge- but at least they took VISA.)

I am so thankful that Ridge has empathy with humans as well as animals these days. Winnie got stitched up and slept in my arms all night. She “told” Ridge all about her pain this morning and wagged her tail at the same time. He assured her that she would be ok and went on to school.

The dog that bit her came in and she wagged her tail. Unlike with people, dogs tend to live in the moment and don’t carry the burdens of the past.

This afternoon, Ridge told me that the veterinary office demanded payment up front because they have had many times that an animal is treated and when the owners get the bill, they just leave-abandoning their pets. He was very angry that a person could do such a thing. (I am trying not to be judgmental here.) I told him that sometimes the cost is just too much. Secretly , I was thinking of the times I felt totally overwhelmed with the “costs” of trying to raise a child on the spectrum.

The world doesn’t really follow the rules that we try to teach people. How confusing and frustrating it must be to a person that is naturally rule governed to live with so many “shades of grey” rather than black and white logistical thinking. It is hard to understand ourselves and even harder to teach how every person has an ego that they are operating from from that is unique. Our goals and objectives don’t always match. We do not perceive things the same way even when we are exposed to the exact stimuli. With this lack of unity, how do we ever  do anything together?

This is where I believe Spirit comes in. The highest part of who we are is connected to everyone else. That part is eternal and it operates from a system that is never divided. There are no differences. This energy is expressed in many forms but the basis is love. This is the connection that we share regardless of if we recognize it or not. It supersedes everything that we think we know.

Maybe this is our calling. Maybe “autism” is on the rise because we have to change and grow in order to understand these new people on our planet. They do not learn the same ways that the average person does.  They are intolerant of the toxins of this world. They are born with super sensitivities that demand attention. We can not simply put them in a boxed, one size fits all mediocre education program. Nope- they force us to be more. They are the catalyst that  “bites” our hearts and directs our attention to question and change the world we live in. Answers are coming that will change everything that we thought we knew about the brain, the heart, and our souls.

We all have access to the infinite intelligence that knows the answers. The trick is in removing our blocks to access this information of higher Truth. We are coming together to strengthen this connection.

So, I am sending an open invitation out to “infinity and beyond” to create miracles for all of us. It is happening! Join up!

Step Four-Gifts

Spiritual help is always present. But for me , it was hard to always see and feel. I know that there are reasons beyond what we can understand of why autism is increasing on our planet. I don’t believe it is a curse. It is actually a great gift.

What a challenging thought! I have seen melt downs that make horror movies pale in comparison. I have met families in such deep states of fear and grief that there seems no recovery possible. I have lived through extreme anxiety and depression. I wonder if my stress and worry lead me to cancer. But , yes, I still believe that autism is a blessing.

Here is what Spirit tells me:

You have all the power of the “multi-verse”within. The trick is that your focus will determine your experience. You must become aware of your thoughts. This awakening changes everything because you are then able to choose your path of experience.Your heart will guide you to the reality of Truth. Fear only limits your perception and it is attractive to the ego. Spirit is Love in everything. This does not mean that you should avoid anything, but move forward knowing that Truth will always win. Your role in the dramas of life is to realize your power to choose your reality.

Autism forces you to change. It forces you to question the “what is” and opens thoughts of “what if”. This is a gift given to those on the edge of transformation. Take the hero’s journey and add to the collective good for all.

First Blog

Howdy!

My name is Patrice and I am a mother of three children-one of which has the diagnosis of Asperger’s Syndrome. Just for reference, I was born and raised in a small town in Florida, married a guy in the military and have lived in many places(Missouri, NC, HI, GA, VA, FL, KS,and TX). I worked as a teacher for many years with a Bachelors in Elementary Education and a Masters in Gifted Ed. I passed the board certification in 2011 as a behavior analyst (BCBA). Our story is typical of many others with problems in schools, identification, medication, therapies, sibling issues,  etc. I understand the role of the teacher, the therapist and the mom of a child on the spectrum. Stress was a major theme in my life and I was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer two years ago and successfully completed chemo, surgery and radiation. Currently, I enjoy my life with friends here in Texas and working out at my oldest son’s CrossFit gym. Our daughter is a freshman at UT and our youngest Aspie is successfully attending a public high school, playing football and is totally mainstreamed.

As a therapist, I found that moms take a heavy hit on the responsibility and stress part of raising a child on the spectrum. This blog is an attempt to help. I can share what I have learned but more importantly are the things I wish to learn and shifting who I want to be. I hope to learn from the past and move on -but not too far into the unseen future to get lost. Enjoying the moment is the theme I wish to promote.  Although it sounds very simple, getting to that place is not easy. Staying there is even more difficult to “enjoy what is”. I meditate, study A Course In Miracles and listen to my horses, dogs, and dreams for guidance. It is a spiritual thing!

So, here is my plan:

  1. I will write from a place of peace.
  2. I will offer whatever comes up with the hope that it can help others as well.
  3. We may create a positive community.
  4. Our playing together can be beneficial and I hope to offer some inspired actions.